According to the Many Worlds interpretation of quantum physics, there are multiple versions of you flung like stars across multiple universes. You have met these versions of yourself in dreams and forgotten them when you wake up (usually).
You are constantly running after new ideas while wondering how you think up “stuff like that.” They come from your dreams.
You are drawn to books, perhaps mine, perhaps not because in these books you find confirmations that the universe is bigger and more bizarre than either science or common sense will admit.
Like many, you are often frustrated when you try to combine the stuff of your dreams and your imagination with the apparently linear world of consensual reality. One day you will read the old book “As a Man Thinketh” and then you’ll know how to do it.
Until then, the search for multiple universes is an exciting one. You may never find them, but the joy is in the search.